Blinders off.

You know how you can be cruising along enjoying life and making the best you can of it and then, WHAMM!, something happens and you start to really look at how things have been? Well, it's happened to me and I gotta say, I prefer life with the blinders. Except that I can't get them back on now and it sucks. Growth is painful and so damned difficult to get through. Wisdom tells me it will be better on the other side, but it might take a bit to adjust and get used to my new vision. The 'conversation' hurt me, really bad, and I've been trying to figure out if I heard it wrong or if 'you' really meant what you said. I think you meant it even though you said it with such a nice voice. It was mean and you've got it wrong, but so be it.